California Fall Colors
These are photos of my trip a few years ago to my cousin's home in Angelus Oaks, close to Big Bear Lake. She dearly loves her home, her critters, and her friends - fellow mountain dwellers. Last week she was diagnosed with breast cancer, and today she had a mastectomy at 1:00 and was home in the early evening. I still can't believe how quickly you're kicked out the door after major surgery...
I didn't go to be with her, although she would have been the first to show up on my doorstep, if I needed her. She does, but I cannot forgive myself for not being the first one she saw when she came out of the anesthetic. I should have been there to take her home, make her comfortable, and see to her needs. She knows why I didn't come and forgives me for my shortcomings and failings. I don't know if I can.